Curiously enjoying darkness

Lately I've been looking at the dark parts of me. The parts I would rather ignore. These corners I'd rather paint over only to discover to late that paint chips and my darkness resides and lives undiscovered and angry. Prejudged based on outside opinions so loud that I lost sight of my own truths about myself. What once was terrifying now engulfs me completely. And I am lost chasing the fear that once haunted me.

Enticing

Smell so good with a taste so sweet
Not exactly sure why you’d pass on this treat
I’ll meet you in another life or maybe in my dreams
Where I can’t paint the picture and color every scene

map

Guide me to the top of the mountains

throw me off 

Free fall

reminiscing curt opinions 

I was never good enough

never fast enough

never young enough

too smooth

too easy

you need a road frequently traveled

I am the road less traveled

My lane is tight 

My road is a dark forest 

Filled with mysterious creatures and fantastic beauties

X marks the spot

Ego heard me loud and clear
Now he is no longer near
Inflated
related was the message sent
So dense

I'm feeding the animal at the zoo
he does not know there is nothing new
He scurries off into the night
to sleep and dream ever so light
She's laying next to him ever so tight
or is she when he's texting me

For one moment
One single second
I read his words
and thought to myself
nothing
no envy
no sadness
no things

Stew for you

I stew for you
I pine for your arms
The beat of your heart against the back of my chest
The embrace of your love flowing fluidly
The enchantment of your voice whispering loving words

Your like the wind
I can feel you when you're not around
Loving vibrations connect us
yours muddled with insecurity
I'll never be sure, if you'll ever be clear

Once upon a time I loved you, while you loved everyone else
Twice upon a time I left to love myself
Three times I fall in love madly
no longer deluted with your influenced perception

I stew for you
everything I ever wanted was in your eyes

LIFE

First you must realize you were born into a vehicle
then you must realize this vehicle is perfect as it is
Then you must understand how the vehicle works at its best
then you must drive the vehicle
but what drives the vehicle?

And now your drive begins
your welcome

proverb

You will never win when you compete with losers