Random thoughts cycle through my head lately. I'm I working to hard? Is it time to play? I'm a hardly working at all? Repeat, Recycle, repeat.
I'm trying a new method. Create, rinse, Repeat. What the hell does that even mean? I catch my self pondering this to often. But I'm honestly tired of these bad habits. These glitches in my behavior to rid themselves or be release at an appropriate time, if nothing else.
Eating Habits
Expectations
Standards
Maybe its just my age as I get older and seek wisdom for peace and happiness in my life so that I can sleep the whole night threw with confidence in myself to know my flow with the waves life throws at us.
Eating is my number one tangible thing I would like to tackle. The one thing that I can control and the one thing I have the strongest emotional connection to. My current brain backup storage is in repeat, recycle, repeat. "your not working hard enough, you spend to much on yourself, your lazy"
All lies! I recently gave up my car to stand behind one of my standards and expectations. I believe in Knowledge and change but with out application it means nothing and without support its impossible. So here I am supporting myself publicly in hopes to concur these habitual beasts, these terrorizing thought, these ideas that I'm starting to weed out of my head.
My little brain is a garden and I can plant and prune anything I don't like.
Focusing on the good and continuing to think of strong ideas creates an open imagination, a bundle of flowers.
So I have Vegan Ideas. Not for animal rights so much as a selfish idea of eating pure and being naked in a field of flowers, vegetables, and herbs. My stomach is also much happier when I am eating clean. I feel light and energetic, the only bump in the road is my mind.
The brain has a premixed cocktail of how it operates without conscious awareness.
I am not use to cooking so much. I did not grow up in a house that cooked fresh made meals although my grandmothers were always in their garden so I am familiar with the delicious taste of fresh food off the vine and the matenience that it requires to tend the garden. I haven't practiced it through out my life and now i have to relearn and gain access to dirt in southern California. which if you have been here is nearly impossible.
I live in humble little long beach so it isn't impossible but training myself out of my lazy habits of writing and ordering pizza to walking 2miles to get grocery or taking the bus for $3 (I'm cheap stubborn) or worst case sernario which I will be completely honest about, corner store micro wave pizzas and junk food like chips and candy. Its been bad but I'm throwing myself under the bus. Looking for solutions. hoping to change and be honest and get threw this process to see the other side.
I often forget that there is a primal side that kicks in. My monthly is coming and I am a salt and chocolate monster. not to mention the weather has been gloomier that usual and a bit chilly. So I was thinking of the craving attached to the primal thought of survival. Packing on weight to keep warm is really a no brainer its in our DNA to keep warmer during the winter if our mind is constantly in survival mode. What kind of thoughts do you think to keep your mind out of that mode or do you accomidate your brain in another way a healthier way? Perhaps something without food at all.
