Unconditional love (a poem)

I sit and stir with a lump in my throat
Struggle for peace of mind in the worlds conditioning thoughts
Listen to my intuition
Trust the power to create my divinity
Breathe deeply to find solid ground, faith in self
There is a push that I pull
A pull that I push
A fight in my mind
Battle between old and new
Things that are not of me and my truth
I sift threw old memories
Push myself to heal, to feel
Feel feeling that are dark and recognize the light comes and goes
I am not a product of my environment
I am only me
I can't rely on my surrounding to fofill me
I must dig deeply to see myself in the darkness and the light
Liberated in both
To trust that one does not over power the other
Trust that the balance of both is what truly meets my needs
To know that even though I am pressured to be only light; it is the darkness that protects me, serves me, uphold my boundaries, and allows me to feel fully
To be wholesome is to embrace the light and the dark
Feel fully every emotion that flows through my veins
Built up in dirt- adversity builds character
Filled with light to empower and illuminate by looking in and projecting out
So at times I look a little gray but I find that those who love me when I'm a little dirty love me unconditionally and do not try and steal my light

Authentic

I will not be sorry for being real
Real
True
Meet conflict with solution
I am Authentic and show my colors of light and dark
I was created from dirt and at times I show that I am still dirty
I can not always be pure white light
Sometimes it feels right to be dark angry and righteous
It feels real to be sad and have moments of conflict stirred inside of me
I do not want to get rid of my darkness nor do I want to cover my light
I would rather blend the two together and be the perfect shade of gray
I have a shadow that I embrace, that I dance with in the light of day and by night my light shines to illuminate the darkness around me
Balance truth
and the truth is I am a balance of dark and light, night and day, anger and joy, sadness and happiness
I am real and I am not sorry for being human, animal, and spirit full
With love and light I embrace my dirt, my darkness

Faith

With one step in front of the other I walk in blind faith
I trust the future even when it looks bleak
I trust my heart and before my eyes my trust rewards me
Clearing my mind of harmful thought that contradict my future to build a positive life here in the present moment
I cheerlead myself to live in the moment
Focus on the good, the great, the wondrous
The small accomplishments when I only see failure
There is no failure unless you do not try at all
Believe in the abilities and the greatness that lives inside thy self

Motivation

True motivation pushes forward threw the gravitational pull of the quick sand that drags and pulls
My motivation is feedback. Its not money, its not material. Feedback
Feedback currently doesn't pay my bills but maybe someday I will have that luxury.
I like to dig up research on metaphysics, dream interpretation, and the truth about life.
The science fuels me.

Motivation is directly linked to interests, no matter how insane the world may think it is.
Motivation is a fire only stoked by me
Motivation can be temporarily smothered when my ego hears of material gain and when my introspection gets too intense
I often have to pull myself out of my head and place my feet back on the ground
I am always moving forward but my eyes and ears deceive me
It is only the quieting of the mind and the view of the soul that centers me
The truth of my heart that keeps me alive and well