Worldly Conditional Love

For a moment I was at a loss for words
I was watching a film that reminded me of my relationship with my mother
Then I went to Facebook and saw a video promoting a company I once wanted to work for
I feel feelings of aniexty and I'm trying to figure why
I start to feel sadness and I realize that the two role model "mother" figures that I looked up to have turned away from me due to money.
Money is just a source of energy. You can use it for good or you can use it for selfishness.
At least one of the women I looked up to that wasn't isn't hounding me, sadly she's not blood related.
But she still speaks and serves a different crowd..

The sadness comes from conditional love.
I don't believe in conditional love.
I wonder sometimes if I practice it.
I fight to disconnect from my negative roots and feel guilt when I do what's right for me.
I feel sadness when I can't be connected to people I once felt bonded with.
However, I can not stay connected to people that don't have the same belief system as me.
That value money over humanity.
So I guess I will never be rich, I won't be a part of the elite because I can't feel satisfaction from material gains.
I can be satisfied being responsible, and giving but it all back fires when I meet greed.
Greed greats me with its temping smile and kind words until I do not bend
Then truth comes out with sweet and savory words of denial
How can you preach one thing and practice another with a clean conscious
People do it, everyday

Celebrities sell us lies and poisonous foods
Actors pretend to be doctors to sell us addictive pharmaceuticals
Mothers tell us to get married to get taken care of
Everyone is out to try to sell our soul
And me
I just want to capture beautiful moments, wondrous spirits through the image of ART
I just want to be accepted for being silly, sober, and childish in a playful way
I just want to be me and be loved unconditionally