Looking for some solid shit in my life!

In all seriousness, I mean this literally.
I'm going to be bold and unedited in these post.
That's the point of this exposure in thought.
Is to defeat this beast in my mind.
Late last night after my first blog I successfully avoid eating junk food by feeding myself a very healthy salad with spinach tomatoes and zucchini all raw in a giant bowl. I thought if I am going to stuff myself it may as well be on healthy ingredients.
After I indulged in goodness, the battle begins. I watch a movie and then start to read for an article I am writing then go back to reading trying to cram information so that I can meet my personal deadline since so many things in the past two weeks have jumped in my way of completing the project. My mind was taunting and sneering that my expectations were to high to achieve. So I distract myself. Another habit I am kicking.

So I am reading this book and I start hearing moaning and groaning in half hour segments and then chatter about what had happened and in between one session I even hear a male voice say "I'm not weird." Now I really want to know what's going on upstairs. But since I'm freshly waxed I can't do anything personal about this, and my monthly is coming. Hormones and chemicals shooting from my loins to my brain urge me to get some chocolate all the oranges in the world can't cure this craving. I tried to fight it off and in the end I was defeated by circumstance and a moment of weakness. The story of my life. But not for long.I am tracking these habits and most importantly the aftermath.

This morning I woke up with a gut rot tummy ache, icky breathe, constipation, and later in the morning diriah. good thing i can't spell. it almost make it easier to deal with. But I'm after Truth. I'm after a life with solid shit! With a little bowel regularity! Is that so much to ask?!? I'm tired of feeling bloated and fat. I can't wait to make some delicious vegan recipes and learn to love cooking and preparing my food. I am joyous about the idea of loving all the processes of life. So today I start with water and battle off the Idea of coffee, but promise either way to write the truth about what I do intake and how it effects me. Food is just the beginning. Life is much more then food and with the right ingredients you can learn to enjoy everything.