Honor

Its an honor to be blessed with ideas and creativity to fight fear and find new ways to feel differently.
All from the comfort of my home; privacy, quiet, peaceful.
I am blessed with a mind that can make chooses, a body able to move freely.
So many years spent waiting for this moment of complete comfort and trust in myself and my abilities with out fear of it dissipating and if i let that thought slip in that 'it too may pass' I would not be in the confident zone.
My confidence does not currently come from fitness or superficial material objects or desires.
My confidence comes from within this place of gentleness and love.
The comfort that comes from knowing yourself and your needs and how to get your needs met alone.
Just the awareness alone gives me comfort, confidence, and self love.
I know my strengths and my weaknesses but more importantly how to strengthen my weaknesses.
Most importantly WHY.

As children, as students, employees, business owners; We all get told what to do and how to do it, or how others think it should be done. Without silence and isolation how are we to find our own thoughts amongst the static of other peoples opinions, thoughts, and ideals. How do we know what we feel if we do not allow ourselves to feel?

Why am I doing this. I want more. Not materially.
Emotionally, spiritually, sensually, communally.